being a mom

past, present, future converge...what have I accomplished? What do I still have time left to do? What is actually worth the effort? Fighting the feeling of not getting much of anything done and why am I so tired doing nothing? Trying to enjoy the days that I have now and not wish for what I don't have. Why is this so hard. A constant lesson to learn. Be content with what you have. It may never come again. You may get what you wish for and then wish for what you had. Relax in being a mom and not being able to do much of anything else, for now.

Comments

[Linda]

It's so easy to be discontented I find. I really am not happy being single at the moment - but I always try to keep in mind there will probably be a day where I wish I was single....

[lisa in portugal]

hi heather

i wrote this about four years ago when my heather was smaller....

"visitor"

it's 3am
you arrive at my bedside silently

little nose against my face
i slide over without really waking up

it's hot with three of us in bed

you steal the covers
or kick them off
that annoys daddy

your feet press into my stomach
and you hijack most of my pillow
that annoys me

but...

i love the soft warmth of you near me
your back against my chest
silky arm leaning against mine

the rise and fall of your breathing
moves evenly with mine

you are a small ember

some day i will have all the room
i ever wanted in my bed

but i will wish i was sharing my pillow
with your little golden head

[Heather Bailey]

Thanks for the comments, Linda and Lisa ; )
the poem is beautiful : )

[Brian Heasley]

I read this heather, when our children were younger: Women do not have to sacrifice personhood if they are mothers. They do not have to sacrifice motherhood in order to be persons. Liberation was meant to expand women's opportunities, not to limit them. The self-esteem that has been found in new pursuits can also be found in mothering.

[Linda]

Lisa - what a lovely poem - that is really sweet

[margaret]

Hi Heather,
I am glad you are back. As a mother, I can certainly relate to your discontent. You have given yourself good advice. It is hard to keep those things in mind though. Keep in mind also, if Sophia is nursing, your hormones are not back to normal.
We, out here in California, are looking forward to seeing you and spending time with you.
Love you!